Right now, with being so far out of balance, my agoraphobia is in full swing. It's making me just want to sit at home and pretend that the rest of the world doesn't exist. But it doesn't work like that. I have things to do. People want to see me. People I haven't seen in a really long time want to get together for coffee. I've gotten as far as being able to see really close friends but I can't bring myself to get together with people I haven't seen in a while. I know that everything would be okay once I met up with them but the anxiety is so high that I can't force myself to make plans. For those who are falling into the category, I'm sorry. It's not that I don't want to get together. Be patient. This too shall pass. The agoraphobia is a lot less when I'm balanced. I wish I could tell you "give me 2 weeks" or "give me a month" but I can't. It may be a couple of weeks; It may be a couple of months.
Even if I was out with "safe" people, I can't decide what to do. The only thing I know that I want to do right now is see the new Harry Potter movie. The desire is there but still somebody else is going to have to say "I'm going to see HP. Would you like to come?"
I hate this!
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