Friday night home alone

I'm home alone on a Friday night with nothing to do. I'm not going to waste the time. I'm going to clean the house so the rest of my weekend is free.

I revoke the whole birthday present thing. All I want for my birthday is my drivers license. Nobody seems to eager to offer to teach me to drive so I want money so that I can pay somebody (AMA) to teach me to drive. If I can get that for my birthday, it would feel so good. Here's a new record for you: I've had my learners for 7 years as of my birthday. Isn't that disgusting? I feel like somebody (probably my parents) failed me while I was growing up in not helping me get this accomplished. Now I need to raise a lot of money so that I can go and get this accomplished for myself.

Then maybe I wouldn't be sitting around on a Friday evening by myself. Nick went to the football game with his family. I don't feel right about calling my friends and saying "Let do something but you have to pick me up because I'm not talented enough to be able to drive a car."

Nick already said that he would add me to the insurance for the car. It will be good. Then we can go out in the evening without having to worry about how much Nick had to drink. I'll just drive home. I don't have to worry about drinking and driving.

I kind of miss drinking. Correction, I miss drinking wine. Good wine. I miss drinking wine with Mark. He always picked amazing wines. I was starting to get a real appreciation for wine.
... The pills I'm on don't say directly on them that I can't drink. Maybe eventually I'll hit a point where I feel stable enough that I would be able to have a small glass of wine with supper. I would really like that.